Certain things are not meant to be yours and in the end i'm engulfing those words deep in my mind cause everything won't happen as you pleased. Thriving through challenges that is hard to resist the coincidence happening, i finally said to dear self its enough of it. Move on, having to stuck in a synonym situation as before won't make any difference. Lust on the minor crush i had by secretly stalking is no use; as far as i'm concerned that he has his own 'mellitus' pie.This is so not me but.. i'm perfectly normal as others too. besides, its been awhile and not to mention the first i felt this way.. how can say it.. um an 'admirer' for ages. Have faith.